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There was not much pressure behind what they did these days, maybe because the wheather became better. On the 12th march there was a person with a black t-shirt with a white oval sign on it, he wiped below his nose with his hand when i looked in his direction. He was still a bigger distance away( most of them like to come close), he was certainly one of the people who should look as if they would have to do with me.
Sometimes they do so, but it's a small part of it. In the last time they had more than usual.
Most the time the sniffing noise was the sidekick of the pointing-at-the-nostril, this year up to now it has been all done with the sniffing noise and few variations of the basic nose-gesture.
Then on the 12th there was a man doing a phallic gesture. Fit, camouflage-trousers.
Once i came back there was a younger man in a white shirt who wiped his mouth in a resolute move when he was in line with the entrance.

On the 13th march, on my way to the cheap supermarket, there was an granny sitting near/at the market/parking place.
A heavier build man in black t-shirt&shorts said to her "Hi ! Is this dangerous ?" ("Tag ! Ist das gefährlich?" ), then he said that she would have the best place in town.
The granny laughed.
Seemed they didn't know each other.
Then, when i was standing line up in the supermarket, an old woman admits me( i did'nt ask her)-because i had no shopping cart. She did not buy more than me, just a few things, there were just a few people in front of us, she sounded as if she would expect that i would collapse, just because i had no cart.
When i came to the market/parking place on my way back,at the traffic light, two people stepped hurried behind me.
The younger man of them had similarity to the one at the 7th, when i was at the do-it-yourself-bicycle-shop. The other one was more robust build, he had shaved hair and said to him :" ach, hair ! in the past i had it up to here", pointing to his shoulders.

When i buy eggs i eat two. Then i forget the others. Then i don't know wich i forgot first. Now i had some eggs to waste. I placed them in the bio-refuse-bin beneath a fir-branch, i did not want to crush them. I added old bread.
I went into the park. A teenager-couple stood few steps next to me, he said :" Here an Easter-man has been demolished" ( Hier ist ein Ostermann kaputtgemacht worden / father christmas=christmasman ), then he was marking time( trat auf der stelle), fast steps, i'm-so-funny-style. An analytical joke about the waste.

On the 14th in the park there was a man, maybe 50 years old, passing me closely, looking at my lighter when i used it, as if he would be checking if this would be allowed to me.
Some time later he passed me again closely, now he looked that way at my newspaper.
In the one hand he had some paper napkins.With his other hand he blew his nose.
Seemed that all his clothing was new, has yet not reacted to his movement, the jacket the pants. He had a blue cap, that tone that they favour since 2002, with some white letters on it.
Later that day i passed a man with very dark black skin and a round forehead, he made a sniffing noise, discreet but determined, a rarity because all that nose-theme wasn't used by the black, past the main phase wich ended in '04 there were some variations, maybe to smudge how it had been risen.

I should mention that those who route all these people towars me are a group of white germans.

On the 13&14th there i've seen some skinheads, not at once, but as if someone did spread them. At least some were right-extremist, one who belonged to them but had short hair and camouflage-jacket grimaced when passing, painful-stressed.

On the 15th march a gaunt tall unshaved man asked me if i could spend him 1€ for a coffee, i did (at the baker at the park).
Later at the near supermarket a granny wanted to donate me 5€, i said to her she could spend it to the red cross or so.
In the evening, when i arrived at the entance, a man dressed like me arrived at the same moment.
His clothing was similar, and the colours did exactly match mine, jacket, shoulderbag, pants.
He was taller than me, and had shorter fair bleached orderly hair.
I unlocked the door, and when i shouldered my bicycle he stepped in and holded the door open.
When i unlocked my door the young woman who lives on the other side of the floor opened to him (there are 4 flats a level).
When he was standing there she said to him :" You aren't a real man " and added "so artificial "(so künstlich).

Last year i used to sit in the near park, and because they have desks at the little takeaway/fastfood (freedfries, cake)-hut, i liked to buy me a coffee there, read newspaper, doing some sketches.
At the hut there was a tiny sandbox, and often also tiny children.
So at the next desk several times there were some people, not younger than 40, sitting and talking about paedophilia, and than looking at me in an expecting way.
Different people each time.
But they were not aggressive, maybe they really believed it would be a test. So i stayed there.
A few times there was a real buddhist monk there ( only last year ), who let me know that he was watching me.
The people at the cake&fries&beer-hut were somewhat to real lefties, liked goa-music and such.
At the end they placed a lime-green buddha next to the cake.
Once i was leaving i was passing a big skinhead who was standing line up.
His girlfriend in front of him signalized him when he had to streak his elbow out, just if he was stretching. Fortunately i was paranoid enough, so he just stood there, with his elbow. Doesn't really look like a leftie. Few times there were people sitting as if they were watchmen or so, in exposed positions.
In autuum i wasn't there for two rainy weeks. When i was there again, the spiritualized lefties had decided that i'm a trained nazi-leader( geschulter Nazi-Kader), and so i had to leave.
One of them was talking that transfered-meaning way, sitting diagonally behind me, saying loudly good-bye to someone with the same name as me, then nerved talking this nazi-stuff.
Then one of them stood behind me, saying "that's the point" at the pen i was using, agressiv enough to make clear that it would be healthier to leave.
He was a taller gaunt man with bleached hair, he was wearing a saturated-blue t-shirt, as they liked to show in 2002, he had a "sig sauer" printed on his back. Few weeks before i had seen a nazi-skinhead in the cheap supermarket with this shirt. The next time i've seen the blondie he had an orange t-shirt.
In the next time when i was passing that side of the park and when it was already dark, they did some action, playing a specially mixed tape with spooky sounds, passing me enthusiastic (with bicycle), one had an u-lock in his hand...
Once they followed me a longer distance, tossing a heavier chain in front of a pub at a big streetcrossing when i was passing, to make noise. They claimed that at least the park including the surrounding pavement was their territory. So they knew that their leaders did surveillance at me, and that they had routine, otherwise it would not have worked with the timing.
(when i'm sitting in the park now it's not too close to them)
Before this in the summer i was sitting at the water in the near park, with a beer.
It was already really dark, near midnight. I noticed that a person was standing to my right, at least 10 meters away. It took a while until i found out that there was a human, because he wasn't moving at all.
It was dark, but i felt that he was watching me. When i looked at him the next time he was somewhat closer. He made only one or two steps at a time, then he remained there without moving for about a minute, staring directly at me.
So it took him some time to get closer.
The street was just up the acclivity behind me, with houses at the other side.
It would have made no sense doing so, without knowing that someone would pay attention to the street.
At the end he was standing one meter to my side, staring directly at me without moving, i looked at him, he did nothing, just stared at my face.
Then he made his last step, now he was directly standing in front of me, staring into my face, without moving.
Because it was dark, no lantern, i could only see his outlines. He was heavier build, wider hips, had shorter hair, wearing jogging clothing.
His body was not facing me, it was between passing and facing position.
I also looked at his face, concentrated at calm breathing.
This was the situation for some time.
I said "what you want ?", wasn't easy to talk.
Then he said "hmmm... alone ?"
After a while he moved on. I think if i would only once had looked to the side, at next his body would have been facing me.
It was so programmed that the triggers were very mechanical.
Just when he had walked away an angry man passed me very closely, despite is was dark, to intimidate me. He said a short greeting while blewing his nose loudly into a tissue that he was pressing at his face with both hands when passing me. He had very short shaved hair(bald), a black leather jacket, a white t-shirt, somewhat weight-trained, maybe he knew some martial arts, maybe 40 years old, he walked in the same direction as the other one, who was maybe in his mid 30ies.
This was on the 17th may 06.
On the next day, in the park a jogger was passing me who looked somewhat similar to the stop-and-go-man. I think they had someone they could hang it on. He moved clumsy.
That days i've seen him again, he was presented to me, he was forced to move especially clumsy, a young turkish (or so) guy was next to him, on a bicycle, he looked to me in an expecting way. From my point of view the frontwheel and the jogger overlapped.
I did'nt tell anyone, and if the snorter wasn't his ally and would have been able to identify him in the dark, then he would have been close enough to get him.
And why they forced him to move in that clumsy way when they were not sure about him ?
I think they just had someone they could pressure to make fun of it, and to protect the real one, just for the case.