( i'm not 100% accurat with "dark" or "very dark", most of the black people who are of them have really dark skin.
When it started with the black they picked up the darkest, that was how they were focused on, beside certain shape, age )
On my way back i passed three black dressed lefties, sitting on a bank. The one in the middle had his eyebrows knitted and his lip somewhat billy-idolish, shirty or as if he would paroding the effect of the sun, he looked at me that way. The eyes looked normal, maybe he wanted to know if i would take it personally. He did remind me someone i knew.
When i left home in the evening a red newish looking car was parking directly in front of the entrance on the street, the door was open and the co-driver, a man, maybe turkish, looked towards me and said "dann geht sie voll ab", wich says something like "then she has an orgasm", common speaking.
On the 10th i was bicycling to the coast, on my way to it a bald shaved slender man stopped me in front of a kindergarten. He crossed my way, made a sound as if he was surprised, but the way he moved said he wasn't, when i had braked and he was standing in front of me he looked at my bicycle or a part of it (headset, maybe) and commented "it's o.k." ("geht doch") as if i would have asked him about his opinion.
Because my bicycle was making bad noise and also felt uncomfortable, i stopped on a way in the forest at the coast, and looked at the bb while cursing it considerably.
A man passed demonstrativly close to me and greeted me.
I greeted him back, but maybe he just thougth that this was funny, he'd passed me closely, despite i was already standing at the side of the way. When he was some distance away i cursed him also. Don't know if he had heared this. Everybody knows that passing someone closely without reason is annoying.
He had a blonde full beard, brown t-shirt.
On the 11th, on my way to the lefties bicycle-help, there were two kids skateboarding on the street at the near park. One of them was black. Immediatly before i would have passed them a woman on a bicycle stopped me, by turning from the pavement to the street, crossing my way and stopping directly in front of me. A contrived "excuse me". She liked it. A conservative black and white dressed woman, maybe 50.
At the bicycle-help there were two men, a young one with a ponytail, i have seen him before, and a vital one with a short grey full beard. Just in the moment i entered the young one said that he had done judo-tumbling when he'd fallen down once, a scripted conversation. Then they had another one about stealing bicycles, the conversation were the way that they imaginated i would say what they said. Because of the scripted conversation there was no need for normal one.
Once a men came in and yelled "are these bicycles or oldtimers"( after this short act he left ), the young one answered "both", so this was a revenge for my "both" on the 2nd in the park.
However, i got me bb fixed, about bicycles he could talk normally.
Why is this ? If they don't like me, why don't they just tell me ?
Because then i would ask them why, and i could tell someone else, without sounding complicated and silly.
So this was what the nameless got out of it.
When i was outside in the early evening there have been 3 facetouchers, two men and a woman.
On the eastside a welltrained strong rigthist passed me, he had a hating mouth only these rigthist can do, but it was controlled, while such expressions are a result of their mindset he was trained to show when he wanted this, maintaining this as a characteristic. He was wearing a red polo-shirt.
The next people were two blacks with bicycles, a man with a colourful voluminous hat and rastas and a child with incredible huge rastas, that i doubt they could be real.
When i was outside in the evening i passed a heap of official cars at a streetcrossing at the near park. 3 police cars, two of them busses, and an ambulance, parking all next to each other, but not parallel, on the pavement and the street in front of an icecream-shop. Theoretically there must have been a violent crime in one of the next buildings, i haven't seen anyone at the cars. The way they were parking looked strange, never seen a constallation like this before.
I was at a petrol station (don't have a car, mostly move with my bicycle), on my way back to the park there was a very trained bald shaved man dressed with a black t-shirt and black shorts, hurried but concentrated walking and turning on a spot, he seemed to wait for something, and it looked like an exercise. Before i passed him he turned around and made a step towards me, so i had to brake. He said "oh", without trying to look surprised. It was obvious before that this would be what he was waiting for.
When i was sitting on a bank in the near park and smoking a cigarette two men in dark blue uniforms approached.
It was obvious that they wanted to pass me very close, to show authority. If i would have looked at them this would have been a provocation. I looked to the side when they still have been a distance away. They were talking, i understood "pick up the cars at three". When they passed me as close as possible, despite there was much space, they said nothing. When they had passed me, the one who was close to me, a heavy bald shaved man with sunglasses who moved like a rocker said "never mind/not so important"("ist auch nicht so wichtig"), a routinated joke because i had looked to the side. On their backs i could read "sicherheit"(security).
At a bigger streetcrossing a police car with blue ligths and siren on passed me.
This (time i was outside) was all within about an 3/4h.
At midnigth there were some people walking up the street here, one was talking very loudly, explaining "(name of quarter)...they all had families...we have stolen the 10-pfennige out of chewing-gum-machines, that was what we were like!", and also the word "burned"(gebrannt), i'm not sure about the meaning, could have been "drunk" or also "attacked".
Maybe someone who knew me back 10 years ago had said something normally, and now they were paroding this.
When i came back home on the 12th, a postwoman( without uniform ), reddish coloured hair, no more young but fit, standing in a way to accentuate this, was waiting in front of the entrance, she asked me if i could take a packet for a neighbour, the woman who lives on the other side of the floor. I agreed. When i took it, i wondered, the postwoman could had put the envelope into the box. I later slided it through the door.
When i left home in the afternoon, an athletic dark black man, cleanshaved head, wearing a red polo-shirt, as the rigthist the day before, came down the street. When i arrived at the water a barefooted jogger laughed in a stupid way when he passed me. He had a shaved (very short hair) head, athletic, grey t-shirt and shorts. Maybe one of the altered/improved rightists.
Later at the water a police-car, looked like timing when it passed me.
When i bicycled through the near park there was a group of dark black men sitting on two of the banks or standing in front of them. They were slender, most or all of them (not sure, just passed them) were shaved bald.
When i passed them one of them pointed towards the other side of meadow, where often black people are sitting, and said "massai, there are many"(in english). When i sit on a bank in the park it's usually one of them here, the blacks had already showen years ago that they don't want me in the park, or buying bread or whatever, next to them are the buddhist lefties, they are very territorial, at nigth they also claim that the pavement on that side is theirs. So i sit on this side here. But it was just a question of time till they found out that this is a provocation.
When i was outside in the evening i passed three black dressed lefties who were working at a stage/tent (for the city week).
One of tehm, a woman loudly yelled towards my direction "(name), what have been the other names, again"(" was waren noch mal die anderen Namen"), in the way that the first name would already be one of them.
It sounded as if she would accuse me of beeing anti-antifa.
When they were out of sigth i said to myself "sh!t fascist lefties". There was a single person near me, he could have heared this. On my way back someone stared at me, frowning as much as possible, eyes wide open, holding this antic. He was wearing grey camouflage-like pants, short hair, shaved and grown. Maybe the one before was already one of them, it looked somewhat like this, as if he had been waiting, listening and then got it. And before i turned in the street where i live another one of them passed me on a bicycle, staring at me with the same antic.
The first frowned starer had a cigarete in his mouth, but not lighted. When i'd left home i had one in my mouth, i had lighted it few streets later.
When i was at the railwaystation, later on the evening, to buy me a pizza, a turkich man started to run and passed me, concentrating on making no noise. He had a stupid smile, he wanted me to recognize this exercise. He runtowards the trains, then he came back with another turkish one, wearing a red t-shirt, who followed him, also running this way, and with this fidget expression( see 9th, last posting ). They stopped at the dönershop next to the pizza, after they'd passed me, seemed they knew some others there.
Then a group of teenagers came up to me, a tall slender one asked me if i would have a cigarette, i had only one, stuck behind my ear, waiting till i finished the pizza. He wanted to buy it for 20cents, but no.
When i wanted to leave the station a dark black woman wanted to enter, but she just looked at me, despite the timing. She looked not bad. And she looked .so.
Outside i passed the black dressed ones, now someone in a super-blue t-shirt was with them, looking at me.
Near home a woman on a bicycle passed me, maybe late 40ies, she looked into my eyes, this had an sexual expression, and she had formed her mouth into a round hole, it looked obscene.
She did remind me someone, from martial arts, but with this antic i cannot say.
I think this was all these days.
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