old tongue

On the 21 febr, when i bought some food at a small turkish shop, three people were passing outside and looked directly at me.
The first one was a man on a bicycle, he gave me a firm look, his eyes didn't move as if they were glued into his skull.
He looked somewhat if he woud be under water.
The second one was a younger woman on a bicycle, she was wearing kind of combination of cap and scarf, of sand colour, that covered her face, despite it wasn't cold. Looked somewhat oriental.
The third one was an old woman, while she looked at me, she stuck out her tongue and moved it in an obscene way.
When she had passed, it did cost her some effort to move on, because she was so attached to me.
The obscene tongue-thing has been used before, always from people older than me, most of them older than 60, as usual more male than female, maybe two thirds or so.

On the 23rd febr, in the morning, when i was on my was to the baker, at the park, there was someone coming up to me, straight from the side. It was slightly raining, and there was no one else around.
I had to correct my course, to ensure that he would not walk/run into me.
It seems he thought of attacking me.
He wasn't tall, but looked fit, not older than me, short hair. somewhat darker(eyes, hair), olive parka.

When i was at the cheap supermarket that day, a young woman was passing outside. She was black, or partly black (x% ?, fair for a black), it seemed to me that she did not want to walk there, but had to do, she had such an expression in her face.
When i was outside, two or three man, maybe 50 years old, where passing me and looking in a cocky way at me, they were upset in a way, and maybe they thought they should be kind of authority. Maybe lefties.
Someone on the other side of the street said clearly "she is so uneducated, it's a shame !" ("ungebildet").

When i was at a bigger petrol station at that night, there were two black dressed men, petrol-station security.
The one looked similar to that guy in the morning, but taller, and more robust(more than most).
He said, he wanted me to hear this clearly :" you know, they are kanaks"( "kanacken" in german is (mostly) for turkish as the english "nigger" is for black, downlooking but by some of them used themselfes, he said :"weisst du, das sind da so Kanacken").
The way he lookes and speaks he would be a "kanak" himself.
These loudspeaking/directed speaking is often done from someone in companion of another one(or more), so it theoretically could come out of a conversation between them.

painted black

At late afternoon of the 16th febr. i was street down at the supermarket at the corner.
In the supermarket a man came up to me and looked at may face, from the side, as if he would be some kind of guard.
He was bigger than average, glasses, moustache, maybe late 30ties.
Then at the baker in the supermarket there was a black dressed man, obvious a nazi.
He looked like one who does know real guns.
Black leather-jacket, shaved/short black hair, gi-style(nazi style would fit better here, but in general it's called gi-style, i think), maybe at the same age as the one before, looked athletically.
He went out of the supermarked before me, and the one with the moustache followed me, both at the same speed, they did escort me, had taken me into their mid.
The man with the moustache looked again at my face, in the same manner as before.
Someone who walked there looked first at the nazi and then at me, but just in the normal way, to see if i had recognized the nazi.
The nazi stopped at a car at the corner, the man with moustache followed me street up and coughed, to show that he was following.
When i opened the door he passed behind me.
Near midnight of this day two streets from my home, just when i left it, i passed a group of young men, i think they were not older then 20.
When i came close one of them said something, i was not sure if i did understand him, because he glued the words together and said it in a melodic way, more singing than speeking.
I looked at them, they had black faces. The voice was to sound black, but it was just imitating, he said : "areyougayman", in english.
Zhe nearest one said, when i passed him, in the same way :"haltsmaul"(an agressive german "shutup").
They were no blacks, they were black painted whiteys.
About 10 minutes later there was a couple, he said "with white make-up"("weiss geschminkt"), and she laughed.
Then street up there were two males, younger than 20, dressed very orderly, with coats, one was standing there, towards me, when i came closer he put his hands at his trousers and said ." do you want to see something fine"("willst du mal was feines sehen"), so "fein" was to be used in the meaning of "pretty" or so.
He had a thin voice, and at all he was a bad choice for this kind of harassment.
Maybe i am somewhat dulled because of all these tauntings and intimidations, i had to make a laughing grunt.
When i had passed him he kicked a stone against other stones, making some noise, there were stones for decoration.
In the night when i was at home the loud spoken word outside was something with"1000 €uro profit"

About every second time when i was out, there was a "sniffer", when i'm just out 15 minutes or so, someone is there. Some of them were right-extremists.
One of the "sniffers" came up towards me, i then turned into the side-street, to go home, he then also turned into the street, crossed the street to set himself in front of me, made his noise and then rung at an entance, then was let in before i passed him.
This was one street-crossing away from home.

Then there were the "it's my life"-singer (in english), on the 16th and 18th (the second during daytime, normally it's during nighttime).
Originally they were singing for fun, a party-gag or so.
It's mostly one person, but sometimes they were two( at least once three).
Then it had been turned into a taunting, by especially doing so at the street-crossing here, once he walked all the street, singing "it's my life" again and again, becoming more and more choleric, and then at the end of the street he stopped and was happy to be able to sing it once normally, because he had successfully dropped all his bad vibrations here.
I thought he is black, but the one who does most of the singing is not, i've seen him on the 18th, with two other people, a man and a woman, seemed the two were not big fans of the singing.
They were migrants, don't know from where.
In the last time it seemed to be a "girlfriend"-theme among the loud-speaking migrants that come here when i'm at home, they were coming up here because my "girlfriend" told them about me, then they couldn't find a girlfriend, then in the morning of the 16th one street crossing from here there was a blonde black dressed woman with an oiled face, that made her look really bitchy, when she looked at me she made a abrupt step, as if she wanted to stop, and on the 18th the loudspeakers said something that there would be another me, in Berlin, as far as i did understood them.
As far as i was able to keep track of this thread.
When people with migration background come up to me it's usually males with darkest black skin, but they do rarely say something.
( with the war and such there were also some muslims focused at me, but also few us-americans, military "theme", some showed up at the 11th sept. '02 )
Many of the speakers show up when i am at home, but at all they make a small part.

On the 19th febr i was at the railway station in the evening and bought me a pizza.
When i was waiting, a black dressed man in his late 40ties came in and passed close to me, despite there was enough space.
He was unschaven, his thin legs were covered with narrow black leather pants, and he moved in a silly overdone stealthy stalking way. Then he called to someoneback back in the station that he didn't had the money for the rings, a woman replied that then they could't marry. Then he walked out in the same silly way.
So he was kind of fun-stalker, a clown to the theme.

fading mask

On the next day, the 11 febr, when i made may way through the near park, at the end of it there was a jogger with a black ski-mask. This was the second time i was out since i've seen the other ski-mask-jogger.
He was standing there, but he did not look like special-unit-is-marching-in as the first one, his sko-mask was not the model that is also used by police&military, he was wearing a neon-yellow rain/jogging-jacket and black narrow jogging pants. I bought me a coffee at the baker, drank it in the park, two jogging girls were passing, the first one with a red signal-coloured jogging jacket, the second one with a white jogging jacket with some signal-red on it. Both moved similar(speed, fitness), the second followed the first at a greater distance.
It looks somewhat like a fade-out skimaskjogger to me, these all moved normally, so they make it more certain that the first skimaskjogger did not look special.
The other days there were some of the basic "sniffers", it is basically the noise for ritual accusation, showing presence and maybe membership, as the nosetouching is the gesture.
It's inspired by drug-theme, but everybody can join, also people who have to do with drugs.
On the 12. febr i was in the cheap supermarket, just when i was inside a sniffer came around the shelves, looked fit, had a moustache, maybe late 40ies, i had the impression he had to do with drugs, but not at the lower end.
Then behind a shelve there were two blacks, one said in a high voice "i can see you"(in englsh, did not look at him, voice seemed to belong to a black one).
I smoked cannabis till about 6 years ago. Now in the supermarket there was also the person where i got it once( there have been some people in there twice, watching and commenting me ). Last year he also behaved that way, starting to talk very loud some crab into his cellphone when i passed him while he was sitting at a way in the park. This time he showed no special behaviour towards me.
When i was out, behind the next street crossing a blonde long-haired tall man left his car, and looked into my face. He looked as if he had to do with drugs(but not addict) and can get brute, maybe because of this.
The next time i was in this supermarket, on the the 14. febr, there were assistents at two of the tills, the one had already closed, and the assistent there was upset, moved energetically, making some noise with the till and so, he had to hold it back.
That is nothing special with this assistent, he is always focused on me, and with this he has also been trained in martial arts.
Once he was posing in the shop, doing a staff exercise with a mop(on a staff, don't now better word). Despite the speed the mop wasn't moving at the end, but he usually has just been trained to show me this. I knew this exercise(without the mop, don't know how he did this), because till 2000 i was doing this myself, but after about 2 years i had to leave there. For doing this exercise he was supported by a female assistent who made his target. Another time in the supermarket a kung-fu-teacher in an orange t-shirt(not from the martial arts with this exercise), who already had followed me to intimidate me another time, was demonstrativ friendly to this assistent, when he was queue up to me.
But back to the 14th febr., when i was just out of the shop there was a sniffer, maybe a right-extremist. And the at the streetcrossing there were 3 people passing me, not at once and from different directions, but the way that they had the same rhythm, the two first looked somewhat like the sniffer, the third was wearing a knee-long white shirt(as some pious muslim wear them, but he did not look like one), also trousers, and he was wearing large earphones(old-shool).
When i was outside in the evening once i was yawning, no people close to me, but some could heard this, and then the next time when i was outside someone who passed me at a streetcrossing did imitate this.
On the 15th i did a sniffing noise myself, because i have a cold. This was immediatly exactly imitated by an overwighted woman who stopped while doing so as if she had a military command to do so.
Imitation occurs sometimes, for example wearing much the same clothing, buying someone clothing i've just looked at a shop.
On 15th there was a group of teenage punks when near the supermarket around the corner, they just walked there, but some other people were watching me, adult lefties, maybe this should have been kind of "test".
Sometimes people who came up to me liked to call it "test", someone had sayed "he did fail the test"("er hat den test nicht bestanden"), there has also been someone who was just standing there and when i passed in front loudly says :"test" or "this is a test", the word "test" had a meaning it's own this way.
These days there have also been greater than life customers in shops, beeing important, throwing arms up.

superred

At late afternoon when i passed the near supermarket on my way to the shopping-center, near the corner just down the street, there were three persons standing in front of it at the street(one of the bigger strets here).
When i came closer, one of them said : "from the shoulders to the kneebends"("von den Schultern bis zu den Kniekehlen"), then they laid there heads back in their necks and laughed.
They looked like actors, the speaker had short gi-like hair, the other two wore black hooded parka, maybe they were right-extremists.
A short distance further, when i had crossed the next small street, a jogger came towards me, he was dressed in bright red training jacket and according trousers, retro-style, and a black ski-mask, as cops are wearing them at demonstrations, or some military in interviews.
Also the way he moved fits to this.
A few degrees celsius below zero, time for superhero.
So behind me he passed the other three.
Then at the shopping-centre there was one who did the nose-gesture when he was in front of me.
And later, in the evening, when i was at a near petrol-station, there was another one, maybe a turkish, he had broad proportions and wore a dark blue quilted polyamid-jacket, while i had to wait, because the assistent knew the guy before me and spontaneously started a conversation about beer-prices.
These two(the nose-pointing ones) did not spectacular gestures, to someone else it would hardly say something, but it's a way to show presence due to constant repeating, and some of them show more excentric or hostile behaviour.
To the petrol-station and back it took me 10 minutes.

The day before there were two of the ones who do a sniffing noise, nothing special, adressed to me only by timing. The first one was a postman on his yellow post-bicycle.

colour thread

Last midnight i was at a near petrol station, on my way back there was a black dressed man with short hair, shaved and grown, maybe in his 40ies, he had his eyes closed and and his forehead frown when walking in my direction. He was holding this expression to present it.
The last time before when i was outside i was at the cheap supermarket, there was a black dressed man, maybe in his 30ies, with bald head.
Both didn't look especially neither like right extremists, nor lefties, don't know what these skinheads were like.
In the morning of this 7th an older black dressed man came towards me, just when i cycled down the street here, with his right hand he hurried touched his cheek, in his left hand he was holding a sheet of paper, the way that it would better fit to a situation in an office.
Maybe it was a police "theme".
Also on the 7th, when leaving the house and opening the door, in that moment a overwighted man dressed in a black baseball-jacket with black sleeves, black trousers, also black boots as i remember, passed in front of me.
The day before at a streetcrossing there was a black man with a black beret, on a bicycle, he had a somewhat nerved or angry expression, when i came closer he looked at me as if he would expect something.
On the other side of the street there was a black dressed man, a lefty, who was watching me, but he did not want that i know that he was doing so.
This was very unusual behavior, because if people are watching me they usually want me to know this.
Also that day there was another black dressed lefty (maybe in his 40s), on a bicycle, he was looking in my face, this had a meaning to him, maybe he was curious, this was immediatly after the third person who made a sniffing noise(wich i had already described, on the 6th febr.).

In 2000 it started with the colours, there were smaller groups of people who wore the same colour. Nearly all colours were used during the year, with red-tones, from orange to purple, dominating.
In 2001 then orange was popular all the year, the theme fits somehow to the support from martial artists, and in 2002 it was blue.
While orange symbolizes buddhism, blue seems to do also, kind of neo-buddhism.
In 2001 there was also a short but intense green phase, that did not last longer than two weeks. The green seemed to be muslim and where opposed to the orange, i think they both claimed that i was the leader of the other, most of them showed up on one of the bigger streets here, it was a cocky catwalk.
At the end of 2002 red was also popular.
Sometimes colours are still used, mostly orange and blue, but far less than during these years. It can also be combined with the basic-sign, or whatever.

From mid of 2002 to mid 2004 there have many black people shown up, it started abruptly, and then decreased in mid 2004, but the structures still exist.
Nearly all were black males with very dark skin, but no older or small, overweighted, teenagers, no big glasses, it seems it was a kind of draft
(otherwisw there are people of any age, male and female).
The first ones were all bald.
They did not wear blue colour, nor did they use the basic sign.
Before 2002 there have been black men only once, two men on bicyles, they said something like "dead cattle", the next persons who came towards me were two long-haired blonde women, looking both much the same, laughing too childish for their age. This was in 99, i think.

at home

My neighbor, who lives in the flat above me, likes to go in his bathroom when i go in my bathroom, and then to make some noise to let me know that he is there (flushing, putting things, loud steps, or even enter the staircase).
He did it all the last year, and he can do at any time, as if he was just made for that. I think maybe in 50% or so he succeeds doing so.
Since the last month of the past year it seems that he has prepared the door of a cupboard in the kitchen above, and when it's windy he opens the window, and then the door closes loudly squiling and rattling, seems that it would need to be oiled.
But it doesn't close really, and due to the wind it opens again to make noise again.
If the wind is convenient this can last some hours.
It's really loud and can also be heared an the street.
The neighbour next to him is an old man, as far as i know, so maybe that's why he does not complain (i do not because i think it makes no sense to try to make conversation, because it's too obvious...).

Sometimes, maybe once a week or so, there is someone walking down the street and then saying a word or a few loudly at the streetcrossing where i live(not much traffic, small streets). A figure that has been repeated a few times since end of the last year is a man(or more), saying something loud or shouting, in companion of a laughing woman. Yesterday there were two younger persons, the male said "energy"(in englich), while the female repeated a vocal in an overdone way, laughing.
The themes could be like a taunting you-really-think-we-are-that-way, or something political, maybe spiritual.
The first persons this year were two nazis, they came up the street, when they came closer the one was singing "you are a poor guy", twice ("du bist ein armer Jung") and when they had passed he thrice yelled "sieg heil", very loud.

This year in a stormy but dry night someone took a pile of newspapers from the pack that was placed on the other side of the street, and put it on the pavement in front at the house. Next to the pavement there is a hedge, and the wind decorated the street with the newspapers, and also the hedge, so the noise of the fluttering newspapers supplemented to the squiling door.

basic sign

When i'm outside i mostly move with my bicycle.
Today when i was riding along the near park a cyclist passed me and made a sniffing noise, then i past a jogging woman who also made this noise, and past the next street crossing there was another cyclist who did so.
This wasn't loud, but they all did exactly the same noise to insure that i know that it's no incident. They were all three within maybe 300meters.
The sniffing noise is in use since 2000, it was added to a gesture : pointing with the finger at the nostril, wich is in use since 1999.

Yesterday(Monday) i had an anonymeus phone call, someone tried to phone me at least half a dozen times, because no number appeared on the display(only "privat") i thought he could speak on the box, he didn't, at the end i took the phone, no one answered, just listened a while, then hung up.

black batschkapp

On the 3rd of january a very dark black male and a blonde woman with 2 small childs passed me, the man said :" your, äh, -not wife-, girlfriend has told me so" ("das hat deine, -nicht Frau-, Freundin mir erzählt") before passing.
Then on the low bridge that crosses the water a very dark black male passed me, running, when he passed me his cellphone beeped. He had no hair, dressed in black, with a black batschkapp, on the first of february already a bald dark black one dressed the same passed me, also running, and breathed out loudly towards me once.
When i just had crossed the bridge there were 3 more dark black males, they were laughing, because they are clearly a minority here i give it a good chance that they knew the one before.
Then near the railway-station there was a very dark black male standing, and just looked at me.
It was not in a hostile way, but it makes me feel like a mobile TV.
In the inner city at a shop i took a shoe out of the shelve and had a look at it, an older white man (not a shopkeeper or so) came closer from behind and said loudly the word "stealing"(klauen), towards me.

man with hat

Today a man with hat, hand in hand with his girlfriend, passed me.
2 days ago he passed me at the same place (about the same time), his chin somewhat fore-/upwards, and soaked in air through his pressed lips, making a noise while passing me.
I've seen him twice before, close to my home, not long ago.
Yesterday, on my way to the supermarket, a man dressed with sand-coloured jacket and trousers came towards me, first jogging, then he walked and put his hand at the zipper of his jacket (neck), as a gesture, while he was looking at me.
On my way back close to that point two policemen, dressed in black, came out of a building and passed me.
They wore black leather jackets("polizei" on the back), no hats, and black cargo-trousers (usually from a special unit).

I won't describe all people that differ from average here, i just pick up some that are easy to describe.
That there are people who show a coincident timing ore want to be recognized by me is nothing special, but if the police would be that, it would.
(There has been odd police a few times before, but none where i wondered that they are there at all, just common cops)