Montag, 3. September 2007

take it away

When i was at the shopping centre at the 28th of august i've bougth some fast food. When i was standing in line a woman, waiting at the till next to me, put a little girl, dressed in orange, at the age when they just can walk, next to me on the ground, the way that the girl stood on her heels and and knee-jerked did little steps backwarts, trying to find balance, till the corner of a column stopped her at her shoulder. The woman had usually routine with martial arts or something like this and used the child to show me. Outside the shopping centre one of their dark black bodybuilded shaved bald ones, this one with a short peppercorn( don't know if it's same word in english)-beard, passed me to show presence.

I had my window opened very early in the morning of the 29th, someone passes outside and snots especially loud. Quarter of an hour i go in the bath, my neighbour above me pees again at the same time as i.
I was outside two times, at all half an hour, one time one of their sniffers passed me.

When i was outside before noon on the 3oth a nosegesturer passed me at the streetcrossing at the park. He had the synthetic energetic happiness in his face they sometimes have. He had his arms tigth to his body, with the back of one hand he wiped below his nose, in the other he was holding popcorn, made his nosegesture between fastly inserting popcorn. He was walking as bow-legged as possible, walking on the exterior sides of his feet, demonstrativly overdone. I have some health-problems and rarely walk, so this was usually to caricature this. His lower body was in contrast to his upper body, he was one of their composite ones.
When i bougth me some fastfood at evening there have been few people on the streets, most seemed scripted. At the beginning at the streetcrossing at the market place i passed two muslim woman, both wearing black cloaks, the one had a headscarf, the other one had the traditional disguise that only showed the eyes. The next people behind them walked fastly in the same direction, three younger people, the man next to me was already on the cycle-lane, so there was not much space, he didn't react on this. It lookes somewhat as if they were targeting towards the muslim women. Then on the other side of the next streetcrossing there was a man with a long umbrella, the metal-tip pointing backwards, and higher than the handle. He had some tension on his hand, he looked like a watchman and with this the umbrella like a club. When i was waiting inside the shop my bicycle was at the entrance, i had no lock with me and was sitting at the window, keeping an eye on it. A bald shaved man with a grey camoflagejacket stood in front of it, somewhat agressiv expression, stood there for a while, then moved on. Inside the two saleswomen talked to a friend of them, one woman was all the time backbiting about someone, maybe her ex-friend. She repeatedly complained how much margarine he had consumed a week, including quoting the well known margarine-slogan "where is the laetta ?!". Somehow i had the impression that they hoped for a reaction from me. On my way back two running man dressed in suits passed me on an empty street. Both dressed the same, the one was a white one, the other a dark black one. They moved at the same speed, as a team. There were some straps visible at their jackets, it looked as if they were part of the jackets because it was so orderly. The two looked very moviesque and officiary the way they were running.

On my way to the shopping centre on the 31rst there was an orderly dressed discreet nosegesturer on the other side of the streetcrossing, and when i had crossed the street someone came up to me, looking at me, but then passed me. He had very wet eyes, also around the eyes the skin was wet, looked drugged. He kept his upper body leaned much forward, and his arms were somewhat spread from the body, no one would normally move like this, it was clearly for show. In his left he had an umbrella, the knob forwards, he could have used it for a stabbing move from this position. He was taller than me, or would have been if he wouldn't had moved that mutant way. He had short hair, was wearing a pale linen jacket, he was dressed similar to me in the late 90ies. On my way back i've seen the two muslim women from the day before, near the same streetcrossing, as if they just would had crossed the street since then. One was moving an empty wheelchair. I think they also had something yesterday, but not sure if it was the same. When i had turned into the next street i've seen the two runners from yesterday, some distance in front of me on the other side, this time walking and without jackets, they both had backpack. Seems they want to confirm that they are their people.

About noon i crossed the bridge between the west and the east side on the 1rst of september, on the westside a skinhead come up to me from the side, that way that i've seen him from the corner of my eye when he was next to me, he then passed behind me. He was wearing a black poloshirt, jeans, and black martens-boots with red laces. When i had crossed the bridge two muslim men came towards me, talking, one said louder "islam" before i passed them.

On the 2nd i was at a circus to take some sketches from animals, some could be seen from outside. There were also people inside, but i had enough to do for about 1 1/2 h. I thougth of leaving, then i've seen that some entered the area from between the a wagon and the stable tent. It was open, not ajar, looked like an entrance. I wondered, but it seemed normal, because people walked there. To my rigth there were big dogs, i took a sketch of one, then again from the animals on the other side. A boy who was there with a friend said " a little while ago they were four " ( "das waren vorhin noch 4" )to me, concerning the dogs. I'm not sure, i think i had also seen four before i turned around, they were moving and barking all the time, maybe one of the circus people had taken one away. I thougth of going deeper in the area, somehow it seemed odd. I looked around, one of the circus people wearing a costume showed up and asked if i would have a ticket for watching the animals. So i left, i walked to my bicycle, the two boys were sitting on their bicycles, the one who talked to me before was facing me, he repeatedly yelled " take it away ! " ( "nimm das weg !" )towards me. He didn't move, looked happy and sounded agressiv. I'm not so good in estimating age, but younger then ten, maybe 8 years old. He behaved like a robot, and there was no one else near me. Leaning against the front wheel of his bicycle there was a tiny bmx-cycle. The boy once looked to his side, shouted, but then again looked towards my direction and yelled "take it away". Then a smaller black-haired boy came from the side and took his cycle. I moved towards the other side of the circus, at the corner a heavier black woman with little children, who had also watched the animals and was standing next to me when i took a sketch from the ones opposite the dogs, walked in front of me. When i was close she shouted to her little boy "speed up" (in englich), twice. She was really loud, it seemed overdone, i don't know why she did, the boy was walking next to her, she had walked only along the circus, there was no street near. The way she shouted fitted to the boy on the bicycle before. Then i was at the real entrance with the till, but there was no one there, watching animals is only at certain time.

When i left home at noon on the 3rd the first person i've seen was a man who snotted both nostrils, here at the streetcrossing. Then i was at a petrol-station, in front of it there was a man wearing brown sunglasses, he had a fat neck/throat, he just stood there like a traffic-sign. He looked especially smeary, must be a side-effect from red-ligth. When i was back and opened the entrance two dogs came running towards me. Smaller dogs, looked friendly. One sniffed at me leg. A woman was standing on the streetcrossing, she looked towards me/her dogs, she had a cellphone at her ear, she said "you'll come...i'm here in this city". Yesterday there were the big dogs, and on the other side of the caged area there were four smaller dogs. These dogs now looked similar to two of them.
I thougth the "take it away" yesterday should have suggested that i opened the "second entrance", but maybe it was double-or with the bmxplea- triple meaning, if one of the big dogs would be really missing.
In the afternoon some children came down the street here, maybe 10 years old, the first one seemed to be the oldest, he said "o.k.", then they started marching in line, stomping their feet, shouting "left-rigth"'s (links-rechts), and then started singing in USarmy-rythm, repeatedly :" we are sick kanaks" (" wir sind kranke Kanaken "), and once "now we'll get drunk" (" wir gehen jetzt saufen "). When they had passed the house they stopped marching. Two of them had a darker complexion.

Some others. My neighbour above me was more attached to me than usual. Peeing at the same time. Walking above me, also following above me when i moved. When i turned on the heater for the first time( had to hit it a few times) he repeatedly grabed the pipe that connects the heaters through the floors.