Dienstag, 26. Juni 2007

the signs say

When i was outside with my bicycle at the late afternoon/early evening of the 22nd of june, at the near park there have been two children, boys, the one had an bicycle, the other one a scooter. I couldn't see his face, because of the helmet, but it was obvious that he was too young. He was braking, the way that the backwheel was sliding. This was near the playground, on a way, not on the street. The other child signalized him that he should follow, wich would mean that they would have to ride on a cobblestone street. The helmet and the scooter looked newish, the situation showed that no adult one would be near. But it was usually acting, to remind the smoking boy from the 21rst. And when i was sitting in the park a jogger passed in front of me, white t-shirt and grey shorts, dressed much like the nose-jogger from the 21rst.
On the eastside i passed one of their nosegesturers, a discrete one, waiting with other people at a busstop. An agile slender young men, maybe 20, darker complexian, maybe arabian. He then turned around fastly but smooth, to show how he could move. When i arrived at the low bridge on my way back, a dark bald black man, dressed in an signal-/superblue t-shirt( i think "superblue" describes this blue well, like superman, as ideal as blue can be, their favourite "basic" blue ) turned around and looked at me. It seemed he was watching me, maybe to notify someone else. The bridge was full of people, waiting till they could pass, and the black one wasn't close, there were many others between. When all had started to walk and i came closer to the other side, i perceived someone in front of me/to my side , he was moving in an odd way, seemed to be kind of exercise. He was carrying a backpack in the one, an a bag in the other, both grapped on their top, they seemed to be heavy, and he walked very concentrated, not to move arms, hands, bags or head. He had his chin pressed to his throat all the time. Looked like a symmetrical dragging-his-chains-figure, something like this. I knew him once. but in '98, on a cobblestone-street, he came towards me, down the hill, dressed in a way he wouldn't dress normally. Simple plain white cotton sweatshirt and jogging pants, one set, and they didn't fit well. In contrast to this he had a black really shiny plastik shoulderback. He walked very straigth, robotik. He mechanically turned his head directly at me, but his eyes didn't move at all, he demontratively looked through me. The last time before this when i had seen him he was in front of me, with a bicycle, i was walking, without turning he had said a taunting goodbye with a high voice, then he pedaled fastly ahead, in a low gear. Since this i had seen him a few times, he likes bags. But back to the bridge now. At the end of the brigde on each side there was a man, dressed with a black t-shirt that showed a sailor ship, sketched in white. The one to my rigth had a dark very short iroquese-haircut. And short distance behind these there was a cop, dressed in green, on each side, it looked as if they were part of the constallation. The two men with the black t-shirts were waiting. Then the one to my rigth walked to the other one, passing directly in front of the carrier, turning his head to him. He said something, very fast, seemed it was about instruction, but the carrier negated with a minimal shake of his head. It looked very organized and experienced.
When i had passed the policeman i heared "Is he still there ? But he has such an eye-catching shirt." and "But you know each other from the class."( "Ist der noch da ? Aber er hat doch so ein auffälliges Hemd. Ihr kennt euch doch aus der Klasse."). Seemed the policemen were really part of it.
So this was a taunt because i had looked at the bagcarrier. I thought what "class" could have been about. Maybe this was again the martial arts theme. I had to stop 2000 or 01, after not less than 2 years. Of course now i wouldn't have any chance against him( and many others who would also have no chance ).
Few streets later i passed some people, one said "he's already away ?"( "Ist er schon weg ?" ), a taunt that said that i had been vanquished.
Next time i was outside a dark black man who was rubbing his nose came down the street, he had a nose like a boxer and the nose was somewhat fairer than his face.
And when i was outside at nigth someone on a bicycle braked hard short time after he'd set in front of me with some others, i had to stop, but didn't crush into him. There have also been some of them behind me, one made a comment on it, sounded estimating, maybe it was no accident.

The next time i was outside, in the afternoon of the 23rd, two security-men, wearing black clothes exept their bluish-green jackets, passed me. One said with an ironically "but i'm not responsible for that" (" aber da kann ich doch nichts für ") when passing.
The next time i was outside someone said "don't get provoced" (" nicht provozieren lassen ") when i arrived at the low bridge.
Then, about where the security-men passed me, there were some people standing, waiting. When i came closer one demonstrativly scratched his nose with his left while looking at me, then looked at my bicycle. Seemed to be lefties. The man was wearing a new olive green t-shirt, it showed a white logo, two crossed machine guns (i think M16) and a smaller gasmasked helmet on top of them. Short time later a man came agressively up to me from the side, so i had seen him when he already was next to me, he holded his hand in front of his face and shouted at me "i am so dense !" ( "ich bin so dicht"; "dicht" can say close or drunk ). Behind him there was a taller companion who laughed, they had talked about this before. Both had some weigth-training, could have been cops.
In the evening i was watching a band. Just when they had finished an upset big overweigthed security-man walked into the audience, near me, as if he had been alerted. But there wasn't anything that could have been the reason, and if he wanted to go somewhere else it would have made no sense to march into the crowd.

In the nigth, already on the 24th, i was at a petrol station. A tall gaunt man entered at the same time, i had seen him sometimes about 1990 or so, he seemed to be drunk, despite he said something and i answered he didn't recognize me.
He had a small jute bag with him, and inside the station he took out empty beer-cans and started to put them orderly next to each other on a rag, then he even started to straigten dents. So this was opposite of me on the 21rst.
I told him that this wouldn't be necessary, he didn't care, a clerk told him to follow, he dropped two cans at the same time, one in front, one behind, symmetrically at about the same angle. In front of me was a nosegesturer, turkish background or so, weigth-trained. He didn't look agressive, it seemed that he was really making a sign to me. He was holding the forefinger of his left vertically beside his nose, just for a very short moment. With this he was quoting the smoking child from the 21st.
On my way back a man on a bicycle passed me, he smiled at me, i knew him, had seen him 01 the last time. There was an experience wich wasn't really good.
In the afternoon i was again near the low bridge, a man greets me when passing. I mentioned him before, at a flea-market, he once did something, he had been a close friend of my brother, and when my brother died he was there. When i had seen him later and talked to him he grimaced at me, stared at me, to show me how my dead brother had looked like. So i didn't greet him back now. The next person who came towards me was his companion, following him. He was younger, had the same eyes. He asked me for some coins, with the same voice, a close relative. I ignored him, then he added "and if we would look very sad ?"( "und wenn wir ganz traurig gucken ?"). This humour was too complex that they could have thougth of it themselves. Then i bougth me a pizza. Just when i had it finished a girl, one of two children of darker complexion, came towards me. She asked me for money. She showed me a booklet, there was the copy of a small photo of a medic taped on the inside of the cover, and in the middle of the first page there was a single column of numbers, 2/ 1/ 0,50, wich should show the money she got. On the first page the column reached from top to bottom, the others were empty. It looked like a bad joke of the one who connects the money. She said "brother" and "surgery" ("Bruder, Operation"), she was from romania.
She had dirty clothing. I decided not to give, it makes no sense, it wouldn't improve her situation. Maybe i could had bought her some food, but it didn't came into my mind.

On the 25th i have seen a body-builded bald shaved postmen, wearing a signal-red polo-shirt and black cargo-shorts, he was running to his white bus, he lookes like one of the three red&black dressed ones from the 19th. And i had the impression as if he wanted me to show how he could run. Short time later, on my way back, i've seen him again, standing at a street-crossing, writing something into a booklet, kind of bodybuilding-posture that accentuated his strong arms. Later i've seen that he'd delievered a package, a neighbour took it for me. When i was sitting in the near park a noseman passed me, maybe 50 or so, blue t-Shirt and jeans, he almost closed his nostrils with his fingers and made a snorting noise, his cold enabled him to do so, when passing. Some time later a woman with a child, maybe her daugther, and a dog came towards me. The dog looked somewhat like the one from the 21rst, i'm not sure if it was the same, at leat the body looked similar. Maybe the one time i had sunglasses. I think this one was smaller, it looked like a kind of bulldog, also somewhat darker, frowned head. This one i had seen from the side, on the 19th from the front, one reason why it's face looked so strange was the colour, it looked like inverted. But also the shape was strange. So this time the child had the leash, the dog had a cold, and the woman stopped in front of me for a moment, and commiserating the dog, it sounded somewhat sarcastic. So with the snort-man before it was to show me that they are of them.
In the afternoon someone passed behind me and murmured something like "poopo" towards my (lower) back.
Maybe i knew him from martial arts once ? Maybe i don't want to know, and with this enhanced face expressions, who knows.
When i was outside in the evening they came up with what seemed to be their version of jesus.
On the other side of the traffic ligths at the near market/parking place, surrounded by some people, there was a taller( cannot really say, seemed bigger than the others around ) fair blonde man with very long hair. He was wearing high military boots, also military pants. His fixed eyes stared to somewhere above the ground. He had a straight posture, his appearence was categorical enough to ensure that no one would accidentially step into his way.
While because of his enlightment it made sense that his view did not touch ground-level at the same time it seemed that he tried to look into his forehead. On his forehead i've seen three marks, a prison-tattoo of a barbwire.
The man was in trance, i won't be near if he would "decide" that someone would be too close. But fortunatly this was obvious enough, so this won't hardly happen. After i had passed the place (i was walking) a shaved bald man on a bicycle passed me, he had a big bag on his back, black with two neon-yellow stripes, he made a nose gesture and then gave his scrotch a longer look. On my way back someone with short shaved hair, camouflage trousers and loosely bound brown boots passed me, for a moment he vaguely imitated the lag-lamb ( with this they admired themselves ). He had an U-lock in his rigth, pressing it against his chest.
When i arrived back there were two dark black men standing in front of the house, one was standing at the hedge, pissing. The talked in their language. The other was wearing a brigth orange t-shirt.
I was just short time in the flat, then got outside, when i was waiting at a streetcrossing at the near park i heared three times the word "horror" from behind me. I turned around, in front of the icecream-shop there were three laughing asian people, a man who had talked and two women, sitting on their bicycles, next to each other, looking towards my direction. The man was wearing brigth orange upper clothing.

And some others these days.

Freitag, 22. Juni 2007

pump

When i was outside on the late afternoon( afternoon is till 6pm, then evening, to keep it simple )on the 18th of june, and came back, two shildren on bicycles passed me. The first tipped at the tip of his nose with his finger, the one behind said "imagine you must do so/that", they found it funny. Two streets further an absurd man passed me, he looked like a gay nazi. He had a cleanshaved head, athletic, maybe weigth-trained, black comfortable clothing. And a mouth like Heydrich, but bigger. He really looked like both, and not just neo~, he had this timewarped mouth.
Then near at the market/parking place a man on a slick-tyred bicycle stopped me, maybe a martial artist, grey jacket, he obviously wanted to stop me for a moment by coming towards me, a control.
In the evening when i was at the city-week they did nearly nothing, despite i passed so many people.
The first was at the repaired bridge, when no one else was near. A very trained man, somewhat darker complexion, who just looked at me to ensure that i would know that's not incidentially. Maybe a cop. The next one was at the low bridge, the same trained build, and he looked at me the same way. He looked somewhat russian. Maybe they were both professional martial artists. Later a man who moved his head to the rigth and to the left passed me, this looked also martial-artish in a way, a kickboxer before a figth or so. He wasn't as pumped up as the one's before, but still looked trained. He looked at me, but he looked nice.
It's not unusual that martial artists are among these people. This time i did something that provoked it. In my last posting i mentioned that i drunk some beer on the 17th. When i drunk the first 3 (later+2) i punched against the cover of an empty carton, also kicked a few times against the wall. The man above me already would react if i would take a few deeper breathes, by standing on top of me or so. The sticks/staff i still have are completely taboo, i have accepted this. Because of the beer i ignored a mental barrier, so i punched this carton, mostly sitting, some minutes. Upset neighbour, payed more attention to flush the toilet when i do the next day, and martial artists showed up when i was outside.
But that's not so unusual, i don't regret it.

At noon of the 19th at the streetcrossing here a man passed me, talking to himself. He said "it was a ~pink~ day,...i haven't..."( "ein ~rosa~ Tag,...habe die nicht..." ). He seemed to be somewhat confused-or afraid. He was wearing a violet fligth jacket, black pants and white sneakers. His clothes were new, this was especially obvious at his sneakers.
When i was sitting in the near park a rigthist passed me, dressed in white, new looking clothing, a clean shaved skinhead. When he'd passed he made a gesture to his head, then he was doing some forceful uppercuts, looked as if he would be training them with weigths. Later a nosegesturer passed me in the park, a slender man with black hair, tottooed arms, also the lower arms, newish clothing.
In the afternoon i was in the shopping center in the inner city, a greyhaired black dressed man, short beard, passed me, he came up to me in an authoritarian way, made a nosegesture, then touched his buttock. When i had left the supermarket there was an older overweigted man, who stood there like a watchman, wearing a superblue t-shirt.
Outside a cleanshaved bald overwigthed man with sideburns said "this one i've seen different before" ("den habe ich auch schon mal anders gesehen") when i passed him.
Then at a place in the inner city when i passed two sitting people, looking in my direction, wearing red t-shirts and black shorts, as kind of uniforms, one was a bigger athletic with shaved bald head and sunglasses, a man who was also dressed like them passed in front of me, targeting to stop me.
Later i've seen two cops who looked like teenagers, with the timing, they came from a parking place when i passed, they could have been of their people. The way they were holding their caps looked as if they were wearing their uniforms the first time, looked like costumed.
When i was outside in the late evening with my bicycle (as usual) someone who gripped the root of his nose while looking down, and then looked at me, passed me. He was wearing a new brigth red hooded sweater.
I was looking at some furry cattle, a man on a bicycle, darker complexion, touched his lower arm and looked at me, to accuse me beeing a junky. On my way back a man on a bicycle passed me, he had the sleeves of his white jacket shoved in a position that they made him look like a pumped up comic-hulk. Maybe a martial artist.
Maybe they had send some martial artist towards me, claiming that i would be the super-enemy, and now they send one to make fun of it. On my way back i passed two men, facing each other, looked like a confrontation. When i came closer one said to the other "is this the one ?"( "das ist er ?" ).

When i came out of the door in the evening of the 20th, the old woman who lives below me was standing in front of it with some friends, she said something like that she'd lost her key. At the next streetcrossing i said to myself, that one of them will usually have a cellphone, i was thinking about if they would get into the flat.
At the near market/parking place two overdone laughing men came towards me, it was acting, mouthes wide open, big faces, and both laughing the "a"s and "h"s at the same time, each one could be heared separatly, and the a/h's all sounded the same. This was usually inspired by an article i've read online that day, it's nothing new that they get inspiration from this, it was about this nazi-symbolism, so this were initials. The two looked somewhat like lefties.
At the water i passed two young slender men, who looked both much the same, maybe twins, they were sitting on the quay wall. Both had short shaved hair and pale khaki jackets. One said that he had two penisses.
On my way back, one streetcrossing from where i said "cellphone" to myself( not loudly, and no one close to me ) a man in companion of a woman said towards my direction "i have it all landline"( "ich habe ja nur noch festnetz" ), to show that they had been watching me before.

At 1:30 am on the 21st someone outside, on the other side of the street, opposite this house said "but is he still awake ?"( "aber ist er noch wach ?").
In the afternoon i brougth empty beer cans to a petrol-station, i don't drink often, but maybe this was from a year or so, so they have been many. On the way to the station in front of the playground at the near park a child smoking a cigarette passed me. He was a boy, younger then ten. I looked at him, and he took the cigarette to his mouth and he looked at me.
His hand made a gesture, the forefinger was straigth and pointed vertically upwards, next to his eye, and the hand was all the time, while he moved it to his face, as if it would be made out of one piece, he didn't move his fingers. The way he looked at me was not as childs do, it was of dead mechanic sureness. He was like a junky. Also his eyes. His clothes looked new.
When i left the petrol station one of their rightists passed me.
When i was sitting in the near park there was again someone who touched his nose when he was in the middle of the way that crosses the big meadow. This time a jogger, all dressed in white exept his pale grey shorts. He then snortet in a tissue and then wlaked instead of continuing jogging. When i wanted to leave the park there was a brown dog standing in the middle of the way. A woman had him on long leash, she was standing behind the dog beside the way, on the small path that is used by joggers, she was conservativly dressed with a coat and had a cellphone in her other hand. It looks as if the dog was standing where he had to stand, and it looked as if the dog was trained to do so, as a guard dog. It had a remarkable strange face, with big flew, i think it was a mastiff. But it would be small for that, maybe it wasn't an adult one. I took the next way out.
Later in the inner city there was a concentrated cleanshaved skinhead passing me who looked angry, his face frozen in this expression.
The next time i was outside two men walked in front of me, near the townhall, when i was behind them one turned his head to the other and impulsively said that then he would go mad, in a way that it seemed he was pretending to be kidding about it, because he was exercising to do so. Maybe cops, both bigger than me.
Then the next time i was outside a skinhead passed me when i turned into a street at the near market place, he had much similarity to the one with the frozen angry face, this one's face wasn't so overdone, but they had been done in one row, this one had also this concentrated expression and moved that way, no hair, similar proportions.

And this morning, on my way to the baker, i had a stalker. A man, darker complexion, maybe an arabian background, he came closer, it felt nasty, so i stopped at the street to cross it( not at the traffic ligths ), hoping he would pass. But he stood beside me, when i looked to the side i've seen his eyes, he looked like someone who was waiting that his button gets pressed. Then he looked to the side as i did, imitating me. After i had crossed the street i walked slower, and he passed me. He was bigger and heavier than me, he was wearing a white jacket, black pants and white/fair sneakers. On the back of his jacket i could read "wilkinson". His hands where like rubberhands, maybe he did too many exeercise with them, and wanted to show this. The cigarette looked as if someone else must have sticked it between his fingers.

I described most of them these days.

Montag, 18. Juni 2007

a cutting word

When i was on my way to the cheap supermarket on the 13th of june, a sniffer passed me, an asian man, maybe japanese, dressed in black, a red t-shirt beneath his jacket/shirt, that it formed a sharp "V". He had big hair, kind of asian version of afro-look.
In the afternoon/early evening i passed two lefties who were holding fishy antics, the corners of their open mouthes down, the first was standing at a streetcrossing in the inner city, the next one, who had black rastas, stood at the near busstop, short distance further.
After i had passed the first one i was singing some "lalala" to myself, i still don't get it why so many people agree to be puppets for beeing allowed to participate with something greater.
When i arrived at the water in the evening a couple passed me, the man said something with the word "paving stone"( "pflasterstein" ), i think it was "so he wants to get on the pavement,-paving stone"( "er will ja aufs pflaster,-pflasterstein" ).
When i came back, before i turned in the street here, an older man came towards me, he looked behind himself and made a sharp clicking noise( with his mouth ), then he turned his head towards me, looked into my eyes, gave me a cold look.
He was wearing a batchkapp and a khaki trenchcoat, he looked as if he would believe he would be Van Helsing the vampire hunter.

In the morning of the 14th there was an older man watching me, it wasn't so overdone, but he looked somewhat like a watchman the way he was standing there, near the supermarket here. Maybe he was a policeman( without uniform).
Later there was another person with much the same expression.
When i had left home in the afternoon, a teenager, reddish hair, black sunglasses, black waisted jacket, walked in front of me. He threw a crinkly part of a tissue away, with a wider gesture, then he turned his head around and looked at me.
I had seen him before, seemed to be gay. He was in use more than once. This was at the next streetcrossing from home, when i then turned in the street i passed a man on a bicycle. He had a short grey full beard and a bald forehead, he was rubbing his head, a gesture, as if he would be oiling it.
At the next streetcrossing of the sidestreet this man passed me and stared into my eyes, pushy and meaningful, just when i had passed a young black woman who was standing at a telephone.

On the 15th there was a nose-gesturer, an old man on the other side of a streetcrossing near home, wiping his finger horizontally below his nose.
In the inner city i heared a "he's coming back" ("er kommt wieder"), i heared this phrase before, more than once, it implies that this shouldn't happen.
Calm day.

When i was on the near market on the 16th, a salesman said loudly "attack"(in english/the organisation) when i passed him, pronounciating it with very sharp consonantes, especially the "k". This was usually a joke about the g8, the police spreaded much rumors/propaganda, one was that demonstrators should have attacked the police with vegetables that had been prepared with razors. So now there was a vegetables-seller, with his razor-sharp word.
(i haven't been at the demonstration, have nothing to do with attac, and this isn't rostock)
When i passed the near record-shop on my way back someone inside shouted a cortoonish " oh ! no ! more !"("oh ! nein ! mehr !").
So there is the city-week now, when i was at the water in the afternoon a man passing me with his family said "that is the best (drug-)dealer "(" das ist der beste dealer "). This wasn't directed at me, it was just the timing. The old noseman yesterday was like this also, there were some who just connected with timing these days.
On my way back a leftie, i have described him before, he showed up more than once, passed me on a bicycle.
He looked shirty, i don't want to see him also, but he usually shows up to show me that he didn't want to see me.

On the late afternoon of the 17th i was also at the water, this time someone said "this one had trained enough", wich implied that training is not allowed to me.
On my way back the leftie who had passed me the day before passed me at about the same point, at about the same time. Maybe he has a job there.
When i cycled up the street where the brothel and a discotheque are a dirty looking man with short shaved hair, that the skin could be seen, wearing cut-off military pants, came out, he jumped in the air with both feet and also landed on both simultanously, while he had his arms outstretched, and said "piss off"("verpiss dich") when i passed, there was no one else near. He looked as trollish as possible.
In the inner city near a drummer a man with fixed specially glassy eyes passed me, he wanted to show me how mad he can look. I bougth me some beer at a petrol station.
In the evening i was at a petrol-station again, to get more beer. Someone forgot his billfold in front of the till, it looked much like mine, but the colour was different, it was dark red. I gave it to the clerk and said that someone forgot it, seemed he'd already left. The clerk said that there is no name of the owner, without looking at the cards, seemed he wanted to let me know that he would keep it to himself. This was usually one of their actions, if i would have taken it they would have made me a thief, if not an idiot.
It's to hang on something at me, i had a somewhat similar situation before.
Now i was stupid enough to leave my fingerprints on the billfold.
When i had left the petrol station on the other side of the streetcrossing there was a police-bus. On my way back an aping starer on a bicycle near home.

Today there was a gesturer in the morning when i walked down to the near supermarket, an old man, he had his mouth wide open, then he looked down and holded his hand at his face, encircling his rigth eye as if he would have a monocle.
When i had left home the next time one streetcrossing from here there was a man with short-shaved hair, skin could be seen, orderly dressed, wearing an orange shirt. He scratched the back of his head, seemed he wanted to be recognized, then he turned his head to the rigth very fast when he was on the streetcrossing, he showed me that he had been training this, or how good his reflexes are.

And some others these days.

Mittwoch, 13. Juni 2007

stop&halt

When i was sitting on the meadow in the near park in the afternoon on the 9th of june, one of two dark black men sitting on a near bank said "he still got paper". This was a taunt, because i rarely had touched a pen since the buddhist lefties at the coffee&fries-hut decided that i am not allowed to sit at their tables.
( i'm not 100% accurat with "dark" or "very dark", most of the black people who are of them have really dark skin.
When it started with the black they picked up the darkest, that was how they were focused on, beside certain shape, age )
On my way back i passed three black dressed lefties, sitting on a bank. The one in the middle had his eyebrows knitted and his lip somewhat billy-idolish, shirty or as if he would paroding the effect of the sun, he looked at me that way. The eyes looked normal, maybe he wanted to know if i would take it personally. He did remind me someone i knew.
When i left home in the evening a red newish looking car was parking directly in front of the entrance on the street, the door was open and the co-driver, a man, maybe turkish, looked towards me and said "dann geht sie voll ab", wich says something like "then she has an orgasm", common speaking.

On the 10th i was bicycling to the coast, on my way to it a bald shaved slender man stopped me in front of a kindergarten. He crossed my way, made a sound as if he was surprised, but the way he moved said he wasn't, when i had braked and he was standing in front of me he looked at my bicycle or a part of it (headset, maybe) and commented "it's o.k." ("geht doch") as if i would have asked him about his opinion.
Because my bicycle was making bad noise and also felt uncomfortable, i stopped on a way in the forest at the coast, and looked at the bb while cursing it considerably.
A man passed demonstrativly close to me and greeted me.
I greeted him back, but maybe he just thougth that this was funny, he'd passed me closely, despite i was already standing at the side of the way. When he was some distance away i cursed him also. Don't know if he had heared this. Everybody knows that passing someone closely without reason is annoying.
He had a blonde full beard, brown t-shirt.

On the 11th, on my way to the lefties bicycle-help, there were two kids skateboarding on the street at the near park. One of them was black. Immediatly before i would have passed them a woman on a bicycle stopped me, by turning from the pavement to the street, crossing my way and stopping directly in front of me. A contrived "excuse me". She liked it. A conservative black and white dressed woman, maybe 50.
At the bicycle-help there were two men, a young one with a ponytail, i have seen him before, and a vital one with a short grey full beard. Just in the moment i entered the young one said that he had done judo-tumbling when he'd fallen down once, a scripted conversation. Then they had another one about stealing bicycles, the conversation were the way that they imaginated i would say what they said. Because of the scripted conversation there was no need for normal one.
Once a men came in and yelled "are these bicycles or oldtimers"( after this short act he left ), the young one answered "both", so this was a revenge for my "both" on the 2nd in the park.
However, i got me bb fixed, about bicycles he could talk normally.
Why is this ? If they don't like me, why don't they just tell me ?
Because then i would ask them why, and i could tell someone else, without sounding complicated and silly.
So this was what the nameless got out of it.
When i was outside in the early evening there have been 3 facetouchers, two men and a woman.
On the eastside a welltrained strong rigthist passed me, he had a hating mouth only these rigthist can do, but it was controlled, while such expressions are a result of their mindset he was trained to show when he wanted this, maintaining this as a characteristic. He was wearing a red polo-shirt.
The next people were two blacks with bicycles, a man with a colourful voluminous hat and rastas and a child with incredible huge rastas, that i doubt they could be real.
When i was outside in the evening i passed a heap of official cars at a streetcrossing at the near park. 3 police cars, two of them busses, and an ambulance, parking all next to each other, but not parallel, on the pavement and the street in front of an icecream-shop. Theoretically there must have been a violent crime in one of the next buildings, i haven't seen anyone at the cars. The way they were parking looked strange, never seen a constallation like this before.
I was at a petrol station (don't have a car, mostly move with my bicycle), on my way back to the park there was a very trained bald shaved man dressed with a black t-shirt and black shorts, hurried but concentrated walking and turning on a spot, he seemed to wait for something, and it looked like an exercise. Before i passed him he turned around and made a step towards me, so i had to brake. He said "oh", without trying to look surprised. It was obvious before that this would be what he was waiting for.
When i was sitting on a bank in the near park and smoking a cigarette two men in dark blue uniforms approached.
It was obvious that they wanted to pass me very close, to show authority. If i would have looked at them this would have been a provocation. I looked to the side when they still have been a distance away. They were talking, i understood "pick up the cars at three". When they passed me as close as possible, despite there was much space, they said nothing. When they had passed me, the one who was close to me, a heavy bald shaved man with sunglasses who moved like a rocker said "never mind/not so important"("ist auch nicht so wichtig"), a routinated joke because i had looked to the side. On their backs i could read "sicherheit"(security).
At a bigger streetcrossing a police car with blue ligths and siren on passed me.
This (time i was outside) was all within about an 3/4h.

At midnigth there were some people walking up the street here, one was talking very loudly, explaining "(name of quarter)...they all had families...we have stolen the 10-pfennige out of chewing-gum-machines, that was what we were like!", and also the word "burned"(gebrannt), i'm not sure about the meaning, could have been "drunk" or also "attacked".
Maybe someone who knew me back 10 years ago had said something normally, and now they were paroding this.

When i came back home on the 12th, a postwoman( without uniform ), reddish coloured hair, no more young but fit, standing in a way to accentuate this, was waiting in front of the entrance, she asked me if i could take a packet for a neighbour, the woman who lives on the other side of the floor. I agreed. When i took it, i wondered, the postwoman could had put the envelope into the box. I later slided it through the door.
When i left home in the afternoon, an athletic dark black man, cleanshaved head, wearing a red polo-shirt, as the rigthist the day before, came down the street. When i arrived at the water a barefooted jogger laughed in a stupid way when he passed me. He had a shaved (very short hair) head, athletic, grey t-shirt and shorts. Maybe one of the altered/improved rightists.
Later at the water a police-car, looked like timing when it passed me.
When i bicycled through the near park there was a group of dark black men sitting on two of the banks or standing in front of them. They were slender, most or all of them (not sure, just passed them) were shaved bald.
When i passed them one of them pointed towards the other side of meadow, where often black people are sitting, and said "massai, there are many"(in english). When i sit on a bank in the park it's usually one of them here, the blacks had already showen years ago that they don't want me in the park, or buying bread or whatever, next to them are the buddhist lefties, they are very territorial, at nigth they also claim that the pavement on that side is theirs. So i sit on this side here. But it was just a question of time till they found out that this is a provocation.
When i was outside in the evening i passed three black dressed lefties who were working at a stage/tent (for the city week).
One of tehm, a woman loudly yelled towards my direction "(name), what have been the other names, again"(" was waren noch mal die anderen Namen"), in the way that the first name would already be one of them.
It sounded as if she would accuse me of beeing anti-antifa.
When they were out of sigth i said to myself "sh!t fascist lefties". There was a single person near me, he could have heared this. On my way back someone stared at me, frowning as much as possible, eyes wide open, holding this antic. He was wearing grey camouflage-like pants, short hair, shaved and grown. Maybe the one before was already one of them, it looked somewhat like this, as if he had been waiting, listening and then got it. And before i turned in the street where i live another one of them passed me on a bicycle, staring at me with the same antic.
The first frowned starer had a cigarete in his mouth, but not lighted. When i'd left home i had one in my mouth, i had lighted it few streets later.
When i was at the railwaystation, later on the evening, to buy me a pizza, a turkich man started to run and passed me, concentrating on making no noise. He had a stupid smile, he wanted me to recognize this exercise. He runtowards the trains, then he came back with another turkish one, wearing a red t-shirt, who followed him, also running this way, and with this fidget expression( see 9th, last posting ). They stopped at the dönershop next to the pizza, after they'd passed me, seemed they knew some others there.
Then a group of teenagers came up to me, a tall slender one asked me if i would have a cigarette, i had only one, stuck behind my ear, waiting till i finished the pizza. He wanted to buy it for 20cents, but no.
When i wanted to leave the station a dark black woman wanted to enter, but she just looked at me, despite the timing. She looked not bad. And she looked .so. intelligent. She did accentuate this with these glasses.
Outside i passed the black dressed ones, now someone in a super-blue t-shirt was with them, looking at me.
Near home a woman on a bicycle passed me, maybe late 40ies, she looked into my eyes, this had an sexual expression, and she had formed her mouth into a round hole, it looked obscene.
She did remind me someone, from martial arts, but with this antic i cannot say.

I think this was all these days.

Samstag, 9. Juni 2007

daily parallel

There haven't been so many of them these days, i'll describe some.

When i was at the flea-market on the 3rd of june, a conservative man with a grey full beard said "may the force be with you" ("möge die Macht mit dir sein") when passing me. A stiff taunt. He knows what this had to say. He was in companion of a black dressed woman (wife), he was wearing an orderly white shirt and black pants, as they are worn with a suit, and in contrast to this, paying tribute to the location, a washed-out looking pale pink summerly jacket.
When i arrived home a man walked down the street who focused on his walking style, straigth upper body, consistent movement, wide steps, somewhat overdone. He was wearing a black and red striped sweatshirt, brown flared pants, black beanie, and he had a shoulder bag like me, maybe the same. I had adjusted the belt-length, and he had his, matching mine.
He was kind of i'm-more-left-than-you catwalk model.
When i was at a petrol station in the evening, a leftie dressed in black, sleeveless shirt, came in, agressively walking, but controlled, relaxed arms, straigth body. He impressed me with his decidedness, don't get in his way. To make it sure.
7 of them that day, or 10 with companions and a comment( 2 3/4h).

When i was at the shopping centre in the inner city at the 4th, there have been some black people near it, who seemed to be from them. But they didn't do anything special, it was just as if there would be a mechanic behind it, that droppes them here to ensure the contingent. The first three on my way to the centre, all dark black bald males, also much the same expression, then two medium dark ones, maybe brother and sister, who passed me within the rotatory door. When i was sitting outside and drank a coffee, there was a dark black man with big rastas talking to a smaller older bald white one, then a dark black one with normally grown hair passed on a bicycle when they had moved on, at all it seemed a clockwork behind it, also with the expressions of some. Exept an expressly foot-shuffling person this was all that day (about 1 1/4h).

When i was sitting in the near park in the morning of the 5th, reading, two jogger passed me, one said :" he didn't know it" ("das kennt er gar nicht"). Then i left the park when two ppeople started thai-chi practice, i didn't want to wait till they show what gesture they have for me this time.
The next time i was outside, on the next bigger street, an athletic man, maybe a martial artist, stopped in front of three women, before i passed them. He explained to them :" he doesn't need this" ("das hat er nicht nötig").
Later when i passed some people one said "yes, there someone has been beaten up" ("da wurde mal einer zusammengekloppt"). Next of them was an older woman who exhaled when i passed her, as it is done in exercises.
A man on a bicycle passed me, he was wearing gloves of greyish-blue colour, as two masked demonstrators shown on a photography i had linked in a online discussion-forum did (i picked it up from an online-newspaper, because it seemed they were doing an exercise while throwing, moving their arms exactly the same, the one behind made really a shadow of the one in front).
The next time i was outside i passed an orderly dressed man who said "just beat him/them up" ("einfach in die frsse hauen") into his cellphone. Well-kept haircut, orderly short-sleeved shirt.
When i was at a petrol-station at nigth, a guy wearing a new black t-shirt with a big white star on it passed.
He looked athletically, hair and clothing well-kept.
When i passed the near bank an athletically all black-dressed leftie entered, antifa.
6 of them within 3h, with companions about twice this.

In the morning of the 6th i passed a guy dressed in black, autonom-style, who walked in a conspicious consistend shuffling way, cool. He had his hood on, beneath a peaked cap, all black, looked new.
When i was outside at noon i passed a sniffer near home, a postman walking towards his bus.
At the afternoon i passed a sniffer at the near park. He was sitting on a bank, a gaunt man, black sunglasses, dressed worn black clothing, pale whtish peaked cap, his yellow old steel bicycle leaned against the bank.
He had a liter of juice in his hand, watched me, waiting till i passed to make his noise. He looked like someone who was experienced powdering his nose.
And later when i had left the near supermarket a sniffer passed, a woman, with her child, both on bicycles.
4 (6) within nearly 3h.

When i was on my way to the near baker in the morning of the 7th i passed two sniffers. The first was a blonde man, looked like a surfer. The second was one of three workers( about where the postman was day before), unloading a car, he repeated the discrete noise.
I took a trip to the eastside with my bicycle, on my way back i wanted to drink a coffee at the pedestrian zone at the beach.
When i entered an icecream-cafe two soldiers, wearing camouflage uniforms and brigth red berets passed me.
Inside there were two persons sitting at a desk, especially the one big style. He taunted me " boy( junge), your hair is too long. Reeeally short ". He sounded drunk. I ignored him. The coffe would be 2,20€ there, too expensive, i could buy somewhere else. Short time later i passed a group of brigth red berets, walking in the direction of the previous.
The leader, a greyhaired man with moustache, signalized me that i would get too close, to ensure i knew that he wouldn't step to the side. They were walking in formation, they were on duty, the authority was with them.
Could have been military police (Feldjäger), who had to catch a drunken soldier. When they need that many for one the drunk would usually be an elite soldier.
It would make a funny coincidence, because it has just been reported that military police supported regular police, watching the streets bacause of g8. Wich was against the law.
Later when i passed some people sitting at a beach a younger woman loudly taunted "there he is ! He did sooo much for us !".
When i was outside in the evening a man came towards me, he had a darker complexion, was wearing saturated red( darker than the berets) upper cothing and black pants. While he looked into my eyes he sweept along his nose with his finger, then, continuing this move, gripped his upper lip between finger and thumb and stretched it, still looking into my eyes.
Without companions 6 of them( at all, including soldiers 20 or so), within than 6-7h.

On the 8th a nosetoucher at the park, a dark black man on a bicycle. Later in the park a discrete sniffer, a jogging girl, a young teenager dressed in black jogging clothing.
When i was outside at the afternoon at the near market/parking place i passed a man who was standing on the pavement, as if he would be officiallly there for lookout. He had darker complexion, tattooed lower arms, looked like lag.
Not much further there was an overweigthed rocker, "germany"(in english) printed with white letters on his black t-shirt, standing in front of an old woman, dressed with orange upper clothing. He was holding a red rosary in his hand, presenting it to her, close to her face.
The next time i was outside i passed someone dressed adequate to the rocker (no "gemany", just colours:dirty punky style), he was wearing earphones. Next of them was an orderly dressed sniffer, an athletic man, maybe 20 years, white newish looking white sweatshirt. He had something in his hand, when i passed him he made a clicking sound with it.
4 (10) within 4h or so.

Today on my way to the market i passed a sniffer, an older couple on bicycles, wearing spick&span white shirts, she did the noise, he looked at me. Near the market i passed an older gaunt man, dressed with a saturated basic-blue t-shirt, short shorts, he talked to himself "egypt, lebabon, israel, worldwar, that's what it is about", and then "you, worldwar".
On my way back before i turned in the street here an athletic man in his 20ies passed me. When he was next to me he touched his face and, as if this was a signal to himself or already part of it, leaned his upper body forward and started to run, smooth and consistent silent movement, keeping his sligthly cowering posture. He was wearing a red t-shirt, of the same saturation as the blue one of the old man before, and black shorts, maybe same as the old man.
Up to now three of them within 40min.

The situation with the neighbour in the flat above me is less intense in the last weeks than it was the most time. But still there.

Sonntag, 3. Juni 2007

holy glue

When i left home at the evening of the 29th may, on the other side of the streetcrossing there was a man standing facing in my direction, holding a cellphone at his ear. He looked fit, maybe about 30 years, short dark hair, he was wearing a white sweatshirt with thin black horizontal stripes on it. He said "there it is easiest to forget" ( "das kann man da ja am besten vergessen" ), in the meaning that there must be the need to forget something, pronounciating "forget" with a sharper, meaningful-knowing tone. He had a little accent, maybe east-european. The burden of his mission forced him to stand askew at some degrees, but he did withstand it, with his tensioned body.
Around the corner one of my neighbours came towards me, an older woman. I greeted her, but she looked to the side, than upwards to my flat. The first time she did so.
When i came to the near park a woman, maybe end of 30ies, darker complexion, left it. She gave me a determined look, in her rigth hand she was carrying a bow, made of ligth wood, i think with a string on it.
Later a man, early 20ies, with short-shaved hair passed me on a bicycle, he concentrated to hold his face-expression, he had knit his eyebrows to get an agressive expression, completely overdone, looked really like classic comic-book-style.
With this antic he gave me a look to present it to me, his eyes were not really connected to me, no personal interest, he was just doing so because he was told so, that's all.
When i arrived at the water a woman in her late 50ies, wearing a signal-orange jacket, passed me, she had her eyes nearly closed. With this she looked somewhat like a relaxed version of the muslim woman from the morning of the 26th.
On my way back there have been two people concentrating on aping face expression, the first one was half aping half like the eyebrow-holder before. Both with bicycles, the second one sqeaked his brakes immediatly after he passed me.
Then a nosegesturer (basic version), a carpenter in traditionel black clothing with a wide/broad hat. He was some distance away, so he turned around and looked at me, after he had passed, to ensure that i got it.
Before i turned in the street where i live, i passed four older asian woman with umbrellas (sligthly raining ), one started to sing before i passed, and she looked at the other, one supported her a few words. Sounded like a child song. The day before i bougth me some sushi, the woman who sold me the sushi looked somewhat like the singer. Not sure, didn't look closer to her.
About midnigth i carried down some waste, the young woman who lives on the opposite side of the floor had perched at her open door and was talking to a friend of her, who'd leaned against a wall downstairs.
He looked somewhat conservative, beneath his hhaki jacket he was wearing a black sweathirt with thin horizontal white stripes on it, same as the man on the other side of the streetcrossing the last time i left the house, just inverted. When i passed him the ligth automatically switched off (she switched it on then).
Within 1 1/4 h there have been 16 people who behaved somewhat different that day.

When i was outside in the morning of the 30th, someone out of sigth yelled "my slip !".
When i arrived at home in the late evening, a man with a fair retriever-dog came up the street. I was standing in the door and taking my bicycle inside when the confident snoopy older dog was standing in front of me, looking at me.
The dog moved on, then the man passed, he turned his head at me, and greeted me in a somewhat military way, as if he had to do so. The way he moved was also like this, he turned only the head. Seemed to be a rigthist, dark gi-styled hair, an athletic person. Maybe this was for the neighbours, to work out some rumours.
3, maybe 4 people within 1 h that day.

When was on my way to the laundry in the afternoon of the 31st, just around the corner two hopping girls, maybe 8 years or so, came towards me. I already thougth what could be next, because they looked so optimal. Then at the end of the street there was a man standing, maybe 30, fair hair, newish looking black hooded sweatshirt and pants, basically dressed like many lefties do, but he didn't really look like one. Seemed he concentrated to hold his cellphone in the same position, looking on the display. Maybe it had a camera. Short time before i passed him he started to move on, when he was passing me he was still looking at his phone and now typing slowly.
Before i arrived at the laundry an overweigted man in an brigth orange t-shirt and camouflage trousers passed me, he looked like a rigthist. He looked shirty, maybe he didn't want to be there. The next one behind him was a dark black one on a bicycle, don't know if this had to do with it.
On my way back, close to this, a man, maybe 50, wearing a polo-shirt of the same orange colour, beneath a greyish-khaki jacket, similar shade like the camou-tousers of the one before, passed me.
The next of them was a man, seemed his shaved legs liked solarium, wearing an usa-coloured t-shirt beneath his jacket, the same t-shirt the man i described on the 14th may, maybe he was the same person, i'm not sure, maybe the one on the 14th was bigger. However he was dressed the same, short shorts, gi-ish haircut, he walked on the other side of the street. He gave me a directed look twice, to show that he had an eye on me.
When i was outside at the early evening/late afternoon, a woman who pointed at her nose passed me, opposite of a church, where a woman was singing, a musician. The woman who passed me had long dark hair, about 30 years old, short pink sleeveless shirt, pale yellow flared pants. Short time later the next of them passed me, a man on a bicycle, pointing at his nose while looking at me, in a pushy friendly way, he looked directly into my eyes, if as we would know each other. Maybe early 40ies, darker hair, conforming jeans jacket and pants. He got really on my nerves. The next person i passed was a dark black woman, maybe this was part of the timing, and they wanted me to be in a bad mood when i pass her.
When i turned in the next big street a man who looked like buddha passed me on a bicycle, he smiled when he looked at me, he had no hair, maybe no hair at all on his head, he was really overweighted and looked like one of these sculptures one can buy iat asia-shops. He was wearing a brigth orange t-shirt, as the one near the laundry.
On myway back, near the park, there was a man, maybe turkish origin, he was wearing a white t-shirt, had tensioned arms, his shoulders much forward, his lips also, with his mouth open. He stood there, holding this expression while looking at me, looked somewhat agressive, also somewhat gay.
9 of them within 3h, with people who were just part of the timing, like the childs and the black, and people who seemed to quote previous without getting nasty it would make 17 people.

When i was at the bank before noon on the 1rst june, a soldier came in, the way it seems he wanted to be seen, he walked in a resolute here-i-am-style. He had gi-ish haircut, darker hair. Before and after he showed up there was an older man each, touching his face while looking at me, a discrete gesture, but both did much the same, same rhythm.
Then i was at the cheap supermarket. When i unlocked my bicycle a grey-haired man, wearing a blck t-shirt and a neon-yellow backpack, passed me. He was talking to himself when he looked at me. He continued to talk to himself when he'd passed me, gesticulating with his rigth hand. I understood a word, it was "nazi".
When i was outside with my bicycle in the afternoon, in a suburb a woman, in her 20ies, with really wet dark long hair came towards me, she was touching/rubbing her eye, and a man who was waiting with his bus to turn in the street was then touching his face, as if they would interact this way, but thats just for show, they alway get their instructions. He had grey hair, a moustache, he had a white bus, public services (Stadtwerke), with "Störung"(disturbance) printed on it.
On my way back, at a street crossing, two little childs, darker complexion, were walking in front of me when a man on a bicycle came towards me. He was wearing a bicyclist helmet, black sunglasses and purple upper clothing. He repeatedly looked hectically at me, and then to the childs, while moving the finger along the strap of his helmet, encircling his face, while smiling mischivously. The was as well adressed at me as to the childs, he did harass them also.
It's nothing new that they work this way with the childs-theme, to get some pressure behind it.
The next person who passed me was a man wearing an orange jacket, he looked at me.
In the next street i passed a man who was wearing a sweatshirt of the same purple as the one with the helmet.
10 of them within about 3 1/4h, including others who have been part of the timing, as the childs, it would make 14.
( there have also been some where i was not sure about, that day. Looked as if there would have been a rhythm behind some, connecting them, but that was it. One of them looked like someone i knew till the end of the 90ies, he also lived near where i had seen him, but i'm not sure )

In the morning of the 2nd two men on bicycles passed me, maybe late 30ies, one had darker complexion. One of them said "i have two children".
When i was at the market on the near place a salesman said "these two" in a somewhat derisive way when a dark black woman was walking in front of me.
When i was at home it rung at my door, it was a boy with a big bouquet of flowers, he asked me if i could take it for one of my neighbours. It was for the woman who looked to the side on the 29th. When i told him where she lived he was surprised, as if it didn't came into his mind to try to deliver it there.
When i was sitting in the near park in the afternoon, drinking a beer, people with baby carriages and little children came closer. One of them was an athletic man, already greyish hair, wearing clothing of orange and other reddish colours, spiritual lefties style. He kicked a plastic ball against a tree, it rebounds and then rolled towards me.
When he was next to me he said to a child who looked at me "you don't have to fear him, he's just sitting there",
and a woman behind him said "maybe he feeds on little children" ("vielleicht frisst er kleine Kinder"),
the man "he's just drinking beer",
me "both".
Spiritualized investigators, they haven't been here for fun, the woman looked afraid, i've seen her eyes.
My reaction could tell them how many children i have eaten.
Before these people passed me a woman, holding a baby in her arms, had asked me if i could throw my cigarette in the bushes, instead on the way, because her baby would feed on them( "die frisst sie sonst").
There was a jogger who passed in front of me six times, a stronger big heavy man, gi-ish haircut, maybe a cop, before he passed me the last time he spitted out, still some distance away, then looked at me, it had something to say to him, maybe he motivated himself for running with passing me, a winner.
6 of them within 1 1/4h.