Montag, 6. August 2007

an advice

On the 23rd of july they had one of their bald dark black ones, he twitched his body-builded bizeps when he came towards me.
And an old man on a bicycle who constantly stared at me.

The 24th was a day when they didn't show up, i was outside about one hour.
I've heard that two bicycles were stolen out of the basement, the discription was that they were expensive and could be carried with one hand. So most bicycles could be carried with one hands. However, i'm the one here who always carries his bicycle upstairs, of course with one hand (don't know how i could carry a bicycle upstairs otherwise).
It's not the first time something has been stolen out of the basement. Also this year someone had a try on the lock of a bicycle of another neighbour. And last year something was destroyed, i think it was a sofa, and something mostly worthles was stolen : empty bottles.

On the 25th there was someone on a bicycle waiting at a traffic ligth, when i came closer he moved his front-wheel to irritate me, to show that maybe he would drive into me.
In the evening, when i was at home, someone outside said something like "there he is. Not today, maybe at saturday". Sounded as if one of them made an appointment when to show up.
On my way to the shopping center there were some people who let me know that they had an eye on me, the most obvious was an angry woman, blonde and in her 50ies, when she came towards me she had one hand in a bag she was holding in front of her, seemed that she had a weapon, or maybe it should look somehow like this, could have been a knife. She was very closely followed by a tall darker man, attached in a i-stand-by-you-way.
The last time i was outside( when i described the one with the bicycle) i looked angry myself, i'm not really healthy, and there were some of them looking at me.
And an athletic man with darker skin came towards me, he looked to the side, so i thought maybe i had looked for too long at him. And he made a shuffling step, but a controlled one, wide and bowed towards me, like a barrier. I was not sure if he was one of them, there were some who could have been of them, watching me, but doing no gestures or so.
But if they comment it this way, waiting for me and then coming towards me, so i had to step to the side, because i cannot know what she had in her hand, i think he was one of them.
On my way back there was a gesturer, a robust man, maybe 50, he smoked a cigarette, deeply inhaling. He stopped at a streetcrossing, so i came closer, he cupped his left ear with his hand, this was a gesture to someone who passed in front of him (at a sidestreet) in a car.

On the 26th a sniffer when i was at a baker, a woman who looked similar to the one with the bag the day before.
When i was outside in the evening someone with a military cap stood near the house, looking in the direction of my window, then at me. He stood there as if he had to do so, but liked this. Not much later there was someone with a similar cap who looked at me in the same way. And i passed some people who stood in the entrance of a house, they had an artificially conversation about bicycles, replacing some words with odd german ones "there are only basic brakes on the terrain-bike...passed" (" da sind ja nur Standartbremsen am Geländefahrrad...ueberholt "), the other one asked how fast he would have been, the answer "75". It sounded like look there-he-comes, now we say as we were told.

On the 27th at 4 a.m. some people came down the street here, the first said very loud "then he had lied to everyone" (" dann hat er ja alle belogen "), the last they said, when they arrived at the streetcrossing here, was " then he should hang himself "( "dann sollte er sich erhängen" ).
One hour later someone in front of the foreigners house yelled "Alue", an odd pronounciated "Ali" (name), also sounds like lie/Luege(The others before had already passed there, so it could not have been adressed there).

On the 28th two discrete sniffer.

On the 29th i was outside once for about one hour, i was at a park on the eastside with my bicycle,.
There was an exhibition about dinos, mostly for children, i thougth maybe i could see a sculpture, so i passed there. When i came down the steep meadow towards the wagons there was a woman between them, she was holding a girl in front of her. Seemed that this has to help the girl that she should pee. The upper body of the girl was against the body of the woman, both were facing towards me. The girl had the pants down, the woman was holding her legs at the knees, so the girl didn't touch the ground. Technically i doubt that it made much sense, maybe the girl was 5 or 6, so she usually could cower without that support. Maybe this should have been kind of accusation, because it was exposed to me.
On my way someone with a i-am-flying-expression passed me, his eyes closed, his arms somewhat spread.
( time ago i knew someone who knew him, he took drugs or/and alcohol-problem, no idea how it is today ).
And at the bridge an agressiv looking man, darker skin, dressed in buddhist yellow and red, was at the streetcrossing near me, maybe 50 years old, touching his nose.

On the 30th there was only one discrete sniffer, an old granny who did so when she was directly next to me. I don't expect that she could decide herself.
In the near supermarket one of two clerks said a baubling "peaky" (" Hungerhaken ") when i passed.

On the 31rst there was a sniffer, and someone on a bicycle who signalist with a gesture to someone else when passing me, then took out a handy as if he had to report it now.
Someone said "drugdealer", the way that i could barely hear this.

So these july-days there wasn't so much, but i also haven't been outside much.
During the beginning of august they liked to have many people who just made me feel that they kept an eye on me, sometimes connested to each other through a steady rythm, often feels like beeing under a bell jar.

On the 1rst of august on the afternoon there was a young man who made a sign to someone else, covering his mouth with the hand, he was shaved bald, maybe a rigthist. And there was an asian man coming straigth from the synagoge memorial to cross my way, this had something to say to him.
On this day some of their people were dressed that way that it would fit somehow to a boyscout-theme, it was boyscout day. So then there is one of them, and at the next who lookes like this i cannot know then, but maybe...
In the evening there was one noseman in olive near the market place, he made his sign as if was a symbol to someone else (they sometimes liked to do so these days), then near the low bridge there was one on a bicycle who looked like this, there was also some tension on his body/neck so it seemed he was concentrating to be aware of me, so i didn't want to follow him, he knew this and turned, so i also changed my direction, he did again, so i did again also.
Then i passed one of their gesturers, an older man who was pointing at his eye.

When i was at the streetcrossing at the low bridge on the 2nd, this time coming from the other direction, a man who had a bicycle with a frame that was much like mine stopped next to me. He had also an rigid mtb with a rigid fork, about the same frame size, and of exactly the same rare colour, but his one was new. He looked at mine and then demonstrativly upset moved on to cross the street at another point.
Not much later someone holding his antic passed me on a bicycle, he concentrated to have his little mouth consistently bowed down, like a sad smiley, and it was not in the middle, it was at his cheek, so it looked as if someone had tagged it there.
Maybe some of the people who had a look at me these days were some of the near martial artist, yesterday i had some beer and dared to touch a stick, and because the one above me is always attached they know( so then i'm in the near supermarket, i take something out of a shelf, i move my arms more relaxed then normally, a man behind me comments this little detail with a rebuking snuffle) .

On the 3rd there was a black-haired woman, maybe 50, near the synagoge memorial who raised her arm somewhat, then stopped this move abruptly, seemed she wanted to present her wrist.
I've seen the black man who yelled "Allah" one day after they had their hypno-jesus, he was dressed in his pale blue cloak again, seemes he normally likes to dress this way.
In the evening three skinheads passed me at a streetcrossing, one spitted out, another one said "one has to look out" (" muss man gucken" ).
Another time in the evening a black woman on a bicycle turned in the street in front of me, towards a discothek, then an agressiv man passed me. Both were wearing white sweatshirts with thin black stripes across.

On the 4th there was nothing.

On the 5th i bougth me a coffe at the railwaystaion and drunk it on a bank in front of it. Three man were passing me, watching me, one looked into my eyes to judge me, the authority was with them, maybe police. They were about 30 years old, early 30ies, the one who looked into my eyes was wearing a brown poloshirt with a white "omm"-symbol at the side.
When i moved on an uniformed policeman stepped to another man( maybe taxidriver ) in front of the station, the policeman said "there are no children here", towards my direction, "children" somewhat louder.
When i was ouside in the early evening there were some people who seemed to be connected at me, mostly with timing, who looked strong for their figure. Maybe this was inspired by a comment on a forum from me. The first was down the street here, a completly black dressed man with a "security" on his t-shirt, shaved bald, he closed the door of his car and then decidedly crossed my way, the man without a doubt. Then down this street, on the other side of the bigger street, there was a man who repeatedly raised his arms fastly while walking, as an exercise. Later one of the strong-themed ones was a fair black woman with sunglasses, on an old bicycle, she braked near me and while looking at me she made an expression, maybe as if this lame braking would be like weigthlifting to her.
The next time i was outside i bougth me some fast-food.
On my way near a petrol-station a nosegesturer came towards me on a bicycle. He stretched his nostrils, while he leaned his head back and took breath. Maybe he knew at some detail what this was about. He had darker skin, was dressed in white and pale khaki, maybe late 40ies. When i was waiting forthe food four young teenagers crossed the street towards me, a boy touched his nose while looking at me, a girl repeated this geature. Then a man wearing a black t-shirt and dark grey shorts walked on the other side of the street, making a nosegesture. Then a black dressed woman on a bicycle came up the hill, she gesticulated with her arms, like the man at the beginning, the last time i was outside.
On my way back the first nosegesturer passed me again near the petrol station, staring into my eyes.
Then i was outside at nigth, on the low bridge a bigger number of young teenagers passed me, three groups or so, in the first there was a girl who made a photo with a photoflash. There were some others in front of her who had turned around, however, if she made this because of me it would have been the best moment ( when i was closest).

On the 6th at nigth i heared the "it's my life" singers (really loud). They were two and it was kind of extended version. Once they turned into the street here, then they head some more text, but i didn't understand, after they sung a strophe they laughed and turned.
They sounded as if they had to proof or assert something.
When i was outside in the evening there was a gesturer, he was holding a hand at his ear as if he would have a cellphone. A younger man wearing sunglasses, and a white jacket and saturated blue jeans, both freshly washed.
He looked as if he wants to be an agent, also looked like a rigthist. Then therewere two people who had much the same glasses and a corresponding expression.
The last time i was outsided there was a more subtle action: a man with a pitbull came towards me. He had darker skin, he moved as if he would be drunk or so, also somewhat agressive. Then a black dressed man on a bicycle came towards me, he looked at me, he estimated the situation and then was moving at a speed and distance that i had to pass the one with the dog closer than i would have done normally.
So this is just exercise for them, they have the routine, they will have the ability to make "accidents" or so.

The last days there have also some blacks who had a look at me. They were not hostile or so, maybe at some people who "just look" the best use they can make of it is to gather information about them. However, they already need to have some influence to tell people when they have to go where, even if they don't get them to the point to make use of them as they do usually.

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